“It was a song that showed up at a time when I didn’t see a future. I was lost in a loop of nostalgia and nothing in that present moment, surpassed those long-gone highs. The piece recollects on who I was, before I became aware of my mortality and deteriorating mental health. The colours in the present, all sensory stimulation, were muted with the veil of a depressive state I found myself in.”
“It asks the question; how do you continue if you believe your happiest years are behind you? And the time of writing it, I didn’t know the answer.”
"The song was written in a period where I found myself socially isolated. In these moments, the only conversations you have are with yourself - and that internal voice isn't always the kindest.
I began picking myself apart, scrutinising all past choices and judgement.
At the time, you can only do your best but retrospect will lead you down a dark alley. You strip yourself and place the burden entirely on your shoulders."
"Its about self persecution, for hurting others with your inability to cope; and the damage it causes those in your proximity, without you comprehending. You're in need of someone and wanting that feeling of loneliness to subside but you can't sustain anything, because there's not enough of yourself left."